I’ve never knows a child who was more excited about school than Adler!!!!! He was literally potty trained in 3 days to be able to go to preschool. That was the deal. And he did it. He was more excited to be dropped off and be there with “friends” and his teacher Mrs. Jodi Price Freshour than on Christmas!!!! But. In this picture his pain had already begun. And it would continue. It would become relentless and debilitating. Soon he wouldn’t go back after Christmas break and begin testing with answers that weren’t satisfactory. I would become manic with fear and worry trying to find him help while dealing with his pain. The pain the would lead to his cancer diagnosis and his almost deadly hydrocephalus. The pain that needed a fentynal patch and morphine to subside. That pain. The worst pain. Episodes of crying and vomiting and fainting from the pain. God. But. That pain is gone. It did return when he was in second grade but not at the magnitude as in the beginning. And then it changed. The pain changed. At the root of it all is cancer. The inoperable cancer that lives inside him. That is active and hurting him. That required surgeries and treatment. Terrifying and our only hope treatments. But. He is here today. Living with cancer and his pain is minimal. Still pain but it’s minimal. So this morning when I saw this picture I was hit with the memory of happiness and pain. How we live on a daily basis, with cancer in happiness and pain. But. We live. And we love. And we hope. And we are here. Thankful!!!!!! All day everyday!!!!!!!

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