This very much how I feel this morning as I sit next to Adler who’s resting in a darkened living room on the couch with the diffuser pumping out All In Your Head essential oil blend because he woke with a nasty headache at about 7:20 am. This coming after yet another late night with pain. Pain in his left buttock and leg and if you’ve been following along you know the buttock pain was how it all started and how it rolled around again. He’s been miserable for days. It never stops. There’s no breaks. None. Don’t people dare complain about needing one because I have no fucking idea what that’s like?? Nor will I. Will we. Will he. Especially him!!! He just wants relief. He just wants to go to school. He just wants one goddamn day of normal. It’s not asking too much. It’s not asking for enough actually. 7 years. 7 fucking years. YEARS. 8 with pain. CHRONIC PAIN. We can roll out a vaccine in mere months but there’s NO way to help my kid unless we travel states away and relocate for a month. I do not understand it. And treatments are limited for kids. Miniscule funding and less attention than ever. It’s more needed than anyone seems to care about. And yeahhhh sure science is working on it but for fuck sake. He has inoperable metastasized brain cancer. It’s in his brain and spine and it is hurting him. It hurts him evey single day. And if you come at me with some bullshit about cancer being a money making business, we can have a conversation in my drive way about it and if you’re my age you know what that means. I am just so angry. The kind of anger that is quiet and loud inside all at the same time. Let’s just hope he feels better later today.

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